My mom has been in the hospital for the past two weeks, she has been having some seizures and has been weak. After tests were done they determined that her hemoglobin was low and that she had to have a blood transfusion. That was done and she still was not fully bouncing back to her baseline state. The hospital that the ambulance took her to was trying to release her and we had to fight them on it. They were a horrible hospital and after talking to patients rights we finally got her transferred to a Kaiser hospital where her doctors were. They did there own tests and determined that she has another tumor on her side, due to this tumor they have concluded that her cancer is growing rapidly. She also has low blood pressure and has lost the ability to fully communicate, eat by herself, and walk. Her body is unable to handle any aggressive treatment, therefore at this point it is about making her as comfortable as possible. She is coming home today and hospice is stepping in to help care for her 4 days a week. We will have nurses, doctors, and caregivers coming to the home to help as needed as well. She has a wheel chair, a hospital bed for her circulation, a bathing chair, a walker, an oxygen tank, and a call button here at the home. So she is set up as if she was at a care facility. I went out yesterday to get her all new stuff for her room so she is comfortable. The hope is that she either one, bounces back when she gets home to buy us some more time with her or two, to let her go peacefully. My Uncle(her brother) and aunt(her sister in law) came here last night and we decided to not resuscitate if she has organ failure. We feel that would be for our benefit of keeping her here and why should she be in pain. We made decisions based on what we thought she would want. We made plans for her for her final days and for her final arrangements.
Our hearts are heavy and we are all just trying to stay positive. We want her to be home with us... This is her home here with my fiance, myself, my son, and my daughter, plus we have another baby on the way in 6 weeks that I am truly hoping she gets the chance to meet. Dealing with all of this while pregnant has been difficult but as I said I just really hope she gets to meet all her grandchildren, I know how much joy Kaylee and Cam bring her. As my Aunt said last night, it is time to let her go peacefully if that is what god wants. I have battled to keep her here for the past five years and I feel like I am losing the battle now, but I guess it wasn't ever really up to me. It's always been in gods hands. It gives me great peace to know that Kenny and my grandma will be waiting for her on the other side. We aren't writing her off yet, were just preparing for the inevitable. With that said I figured I would give all of you the same chance to say goodbye to her and that is why I am informing all of you through this blog. I would love to call everyone up individually, but I just don't have the energy to do so, I don't mind talking to anyone, I just can't remember who to call or who not to. She would love to hear from her loved ones, though. So call her or stop by to see her, I know she would love to see her friends and family.
My mom is an amazing woman! I am lucky to be her daughter!
Love you all and thanks for reading and sending your prayers!!!
Kari
