My mom passed away on Monday the 2nd of April at 2:15 pm. She was not in any pain and went peacefully. I had been home with her for the past week, I had not left the house for anything and on that Monday I had to go to the bank and during that hour she passed with her nurse here. Travis was home and her friend Tamara was here visiting. We believe she waited for me to leave to go so that I didn't have to go into her room and find her. She had been highly medicated with medication given every hour and a half to every two hours. The research for life company that we donated her to were here to pick her up 2 hours after and we said our goodbyes.
This has been very difficult for us and we miss her a lot but know she is in a better place where she is hanging out with her mom, my brother, her best friend Grace, her friend Muff, and finally got to hold our little cousin Seamus. We are all going to need time to adjust to life without her, I wake up in the morning every morning thinking she is still with me, I guess it will take awhile to let that go. I have cared for her since she first had her stroke in April of 06, so it had been 6 years of taking care of her that I find hard to let go of. Worrying about her had become my daily routine in life. It is bitter sweet, We had our baby on Thursday the 5th, 3 days after she passed and as much joy as that is we still miss my mom. It is hard to believe that she is gone. Like Travis says she was like one of our children that we just took care of and would do it all over again if had the chance. Our new baby has moms name as her middle name, Kalista Sandra and I know my mom would be honored. They may not have met physically but I know that my mom will be watching from time to time and I know she is proud of the family that we have become. This past week has been a whirlwind and we are just getting done reeling from it all.
We are going to have a ash spreading ceremony when they send us her ashes back on either the 19th or 20th of May, when I get more details I will let everyone know more. In the meantime we are just taking our time grieving and adjusting to the next chapter of life. My mom is finally home and is no longer sick, she finally has her speech back and her memory, for that I find peace.
Thank you everyone for reading the blog and keeping my mom in your prayers. I feel truly blessed to have had her as my mom and know you all loved her as well.
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